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A person who overuses punctuation tries too hard to exercise the rhythm of written thought. They out, and overthink their own ideas: they lie.

A person who underuses punctuation thinks rawly and emotionally without an audience beyond the immediate. They write stupidly and honestly.

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What is overcoming others, other than the overcoming of the shortest obstacles, of which we select for our own convenience, around us?

I have outdone my neighbor! A declaration of little worth, since you pick among your neighbors the easiest to overcome in the easiest of tasks.

What if I overcome the best of them in the best of tasks? The best by your self serving judgment! Like a child playing with an adult, “I beat you! I beat you!” The adult looks shyly around for your sake, embarrassed by you.

The best of targets is your own self. The best of people hate their own selves whom they have left behind and below. A cringe at a memory: a sign of overcoming, like remembering your own declarations “I beat you!” But now you as the adult of your own self's child.

But you are still child to your own self. Not now, but later. You will look back on yourself, now, with shame. Such is growth and overcoming; good health in good spirits.

Too much self acceptance is a shamelessness of weakness, without the pain needed to move beyond your own self. One who feels pain over oneself does not think of other similarly, at least not easily.

You cringe at yourself, how can you think yourself as being better than a child now? You accept others better than you accept yourself.

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Zero punctuation is zero rhythm.

Color with no outline. Raw.

Bleeding

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A golden touch.

I am here for a short time. Let this time leave an impression.

Let there be a garden on the bare earth I lived.

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With God, everything is commanded.

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Evangelicals are good for one thing: Proving to others that any relationship you believe you have with God is self deception.

The nakedness of their self interest, and their desire to tear other people down, is so clearly shown in their puppet that they call God. God is a mouth piece of everything they must believe in order to cope with life. Once this is seen and hated in others, it is hard not to notice it in yourself and have any confidence in the truth of your own experiences.

Evangelicals make it difficult to see God as anything more than an embodiment of all our veiled interests.

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The cold makes you forget the rest of the world and think only of yourself at this moment.

The cold has a way of making the rest of the world disappear.

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Unnecessary evils are unbearable. So much so we revise our understanding of the world to provide a narrative to these evils.

The mistake of religion is the selfishness in providing immediate relief for our painful experiences, at the expense of making these evils ultimately justifiable.

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Collectivist cultures, like the Mexican culture, broadly stigmatize the notion of mental illness. Mental illness, as a thing in itself, is not recognized as a legitimate label to apply to an individuals differences in thought and behavioral patterns. This is not to say they particularly stigmatize the "mentally ill," as western whites put it, but rather they see this as an unnecessary distinction for otherwise acceptable variations in individuals personalities.

Western whites, particularly in the U.S., believe themselves to be uniquely free as individuals; unconstrained, persons or peoples are able to pursue the interests that suit the best within some commonly agreeable constraints imposed by a minimized state. Early American history is rife with experiments in lobotomies and castration of the "mentally ill" or "unfit," under the pretext that these individuals required violent corrections or removals from society as they could not meaningfully contribute or cope in the market-based society we lived in.

The ultimate backlash to America's persecution of the "ill" came at the hands of the anti-market, anti-corporate left. The belief among some intellectuals was that the mental health system was a means of social control, medicating and defanging those who could not conform to the norms imposed by market society. The movement that was hostile to the 'mental health system', the system of involuntary institutionalization without judiciary oversight, and enmeshed this with a view of Capitalist society as a system of constraints and control over the mentality of its subjects. To fight the mental health system was to undermine one means the state makers and capital owners swept aside the unusables, and to reintroduce them into a society that must be forced to cope with them as a means to bend capitalism closer to its breaking point.

Capitalism has not died. The state has not, by necessity of protecting capitalism from itself, inflated to control all of society all-the-while destroying itself and the separations of all modern institutions. The prospect of human emancipation has faded into background as we continue to pay the price of previous generations ambitions. And the 'deviant' personalities that were once considered "repressed" by misguided doctors and social experimenters continue to struggle to adapt to pressures of the labor market. They struggle with self-worth, inherently tied up in the progression of careers in a hyper-competitive global market place, in which "employ-ability" and other forms of social conformance are required to survive. The attempt by the sympathetic left threw the impulsives, the alcoholics, the sex abusers onto the streets with hopes that a new horizon of economic and social inclusivity would be ushered in ultimately benefit them. But capitalist America never arrived at what the less scientific cultures already had, a fundamental acceptance of others mental states with a disdain for medication and external controls.

Like all social and political conflicts, the answer lies somewhere in the middle of the extremes. Young American children now adopt the diagnoses given to them as identifying marks; every child has their own collection of ADHD, depression, etc. They have inverted the model set out by western mental health organizations, in that illness continues to be separating distinction of an individual from the common, but this is now seen by many as part of what makes us unique. While Latino cultures disliked the categorization of mental states, they accepted them more fluidly. Classifying psychological outliers became a process of elimination to the earlier psychs, but now has become a process of graduation for the high school grads.

We take our medicine, and we take it together. We conform and normalize the expectations imposed on us by faceless corporations who offer money in exchange for hours of our lives, and we do so willingly understanding that refusing treatment is to refuse better outcomes in this market. The myth of the market society that embraces all individuals is a naked lie: and we lay with it every night.